dear 2008,

damn, you were suuucha rollercoaster. no lie! from arguments with my parents & friends to sneaking out to fun track meets to making grades. damn, even making & losing friends too. DAAAMN. no lie, you were a good year. i learned a lot. like who's a legit friend, what not to say, what not to do ona bus, bringing a camera to every sh event :P oh man. i've drifted & gotten closer to a lot of people. i somewhat learned how to deal with my dad since he hasn't been working cus his injury. oh man. the smiles, the laughs, the tears, the illnesses, the yelling. oh man. it's been good dude. :D so right now, i'm gonna take a moment to like... talk about the people in my life.

family: damn dude, no matter how much i get upset or they get upset, they're fucking legit. i love my family. even when my dad's a dick or how i barely see my mom or when my brother or sister bitch about giving me rides, they're the best. i couldn't have my family any other way :)

jf: my best friend forever & ever. yeah, we don't talk as much as we did before school but this guy's still my best friend. i love talking to this guy especially when i'm down. he always finds a way to make things better. i love this guy

sd: my other best friend. he can be a dick sometimes making me get mad at him soooo much. omg it's crazy. no lie, i love spending time with this guy. i saw him at least once a week during summer & now i see him like once a month. i love this guy too

ss: BITCHASS! i miss this girl. no matter how little i see or talk to her, i love her helllla much. like a real sister. not even kidding dude. she's a legit friend cus she never tells me what i wanna hear; always what i needa hear

aa: no matter what beef we had when sophomore year ended, i still love my bestie boo boo. she's still there for me. i'm glad i still have her in my life cus i can still tell her things that i can't tell other people & she'll understand me completely.

ab: dude, this guy's suuuucha good friend. i'm hella glad that i've stayed this close to him. when ever i'm in a TON, he's always there to help & comfort me. dude, especially the times with my dad. he was alllllways there to help me cope & get back to normal. i love mah numba one

yk: THIS GUY NEVER LETS ME DOWN. noooo fucking lie. he's always there to talk to & ask for help. sometimes he thinks differently than i do & it like always helps me when i'm ina dilemma. he's also there for me when i'm in a TON. i love this dude

sh girls♥: dude, i fucking love these girls. THE CUTEST GIRLS OF ALL THE HIGH SCHOOLS! :P omg. the sh girls are probably the best girls you'll ever meet. this year we've gotten hella closer & i hope it stays like that after high school :D

everyone else: whether it was good or bad, you helped my 2008 be the shit :) sorry i couldn't name everyone & don't think you're not important. you really are :D

here's some pictures from rey's... the last of 08

this is weird.

dude, no lie. i never thought i'd have a song like this on my blogspot or myspace or anything. it's kinda weird if you ask me. anyways, i don't wanna offend anyone cus i've been a dick. idk man. i'll keep this short but idk why i do this to people. i never know what i want or what i need. ah, i needa gather my thoughts.

ah,

i liked today :)

DECEMBER27- i didn't wanna make a new post so i'm just gonna add to this one. everyone's been making fun of me cus the length of my blogs. i just want people to know what happens in my liiife. hahaha. anyways, so yesterday... i had good shepherd practice at 11; it was okay. then i got ready for san jose with ll & gv. dude, i was suuuch a third wheel. :-/ dude, we went to hella urban boutiques. i kinda regret not getting anything cus there was some nice stuff. out of all the stores we went to, i liked azuki. no lie, ll & gv are the worst navigators ever. we got lost sooooooo many times! omg. sooooo many circles. i don't even know how many times we got lost. omg & gv started driving on the wrong side of the road! omg it was hellllla funny! he said that he was "following the line"...UH HUH. that's how we get on the wrong side of the road, right? hahaha. so yeah, we went to valley fair in san jose. that is where we met up pg. dude's pretty taaaaall. i felt bad cus i was getting him in trouble though. uh, merry christmas chelsea :) hahahahahah... anyways. i really wanted cinnabon yesterday though cus lorina got some for her mom. OMG, they smelled delicious! hahaha okay. so after valley fair, we picked up gv's friend, k_ in burlingame. then we went to coit tower to take pictures. DUUUUDE I WAS OBSESSED WITH LIGHT TRAILS! omg. they're soooo sick. i was spelling my name :) dude, taking notes backwards in ethics reeeally helped cus in order for my name to be read, i had to. omg it was sooooo sick. then gv had to drop us off downtown so he can drive his auntie to work. so we took more pictures. :) then it was back home. man, reading this made my day seem not as good... you just had to be there. hahahaha

thanks jose for letting me use your camera! :D

merry christmas!

so i tried posting about my christmas eve & christmas day but then something weird happened cus i had a less than sign & 3 & it made my blog like delete parts of it & yeah. so i'm gonna re-do this. baaasically saying the same stuff as before. so yesterday i chilled with my family at the randolph residence as usual. thanksgiving had waaaay better food than christmas though. dude, most of the time people were praising my dad for his 15 pound loss cus his new "diet". it's like where you drink these shakes two times a day & then eat one real meal. idk man. i think it's gross.but whatever, it's working for him. so yeah. so when we were eating, it was me, sh, ss, ss, jb & kinda lb. so ss & jb were talking about like people they knew or whatever. & then sh asked jb about mm. she was like oh how's mm? is she still there? & jb was like we're cool but maybe in two years. & sh was like oh, you think she's the one? & jb was like yeah but i needa look around to make sure that she's the one. when he said that, i hellllla thought of jc's blog "four people". i'm hoping that mm & jb will get back together cus they were legit. like not even kidding. cus i saw how they were when they were together. it was good stuff. i think they broke up around this time last year too. yeah, it was last year cus i remember she got us the ghiradelli peppermint bark squares (IT WAS HELLLLLA GOOD) & i was raving to yk about them. hahaha. back to the point, i'm not just saying this cus i like mm better than all jb's past girlfriends. it's cus from the sidelines, they seemed like really good for each other. idk, maybe that's just me. she basically lived at the house for a while & idk, she was hella cool. i think mm & jb are meant to be cus they've gotten back together after break-ups before. why not now? ah, it's their relationship, not mine. but that's just where i stand... from a outsider's point of view. in a way i want them to see this but then i don't want them to see other parts of my blog. hahahahaha. anyways... so we rock band 2-ed & guitar hero-ed it up! dude, i'm addicted. no lie. i hella wanna get them cus they had good ass songs. omg there was paramore. OMG. it was good. dude, i got helllla better. not even kidding man. i told yk i wanted it & he was like that's hype blah blah blah. -____- he's just mad cus he sucks at it. JUST KIDDING YK! I LOVE YOU :D hahahaha. so yeah. continuing my christmas eve... we did white elephant & we picked numbers outta cup from oldest to youngest. dude, my changes were 1, 11, & 12. y'know what i get?! 1! just my luck man so i end up with a toothbrush & a five dollar gift certificate to starbucks. oh well, it's okay. uh & thennn i got money & brown cords from urban cus i needed some new school pants & sh gets a discount so yeah. dude, mr & rr gave me $40... in two dollar bills. dude, they're crisp as fuck but when i got the envelope, i thought that they were stripper dollars in like a random ass amount. hahahaha. i got quite a few texts but jp & jf called. i think phone calls are the best way to go cus everything else is so impersonal. dude, jp surprised me though. i put my phone on silent when i went to sleep cus i knew i was gonna have texts at different times & i didn't wanna wake up hella times. so it was nice waking up to five texts :) & today... i just chilled cus the cousin movie thing failed & then watching a movie with sh-ers failed too. so i'm at home... on iss myspace & blogspot. hahaha. yeah. well....

merry christmas!
from my family to your's :D

break is just zoomin by

damn dude, it's already christmas eve! break has been hellllla fun :) no fuckin lie man, i love SH. i really do. they are the shit. SO FOR ALL YOU SH HEADS THAT READ THIS, I FUCKIN LOVE YOU GUYS! :D alright. so break has been sooo much fun. let's go day by day. saturday: i had a good shepherd game & they won! they did hella good dude. i was proud :D hahaha then i ran some errands & then went to kc's house. it was pretty cool dude. there was twister (i didn't play though), spoons with a dare, & hide & seek. the dares fo spoons were pretty interesting. hahaha, jc's a trooper. hahaha. & after we played hide & seek, rs got hellllla pale cus he was dehydrated after his sprint from the top of the street to kc's house. it was pretty intense. so sunday: CHRISTMAS PARTY! for kris kringle, i had kr & i got him a 10 deep shirt. jd had me & got me the stussy v-neck that i saw on the website & wanted. so it was a good one :) dude, then we chilled in the garage. it was interesting to see close to everyone like outta school in like that light, i guess. jm said she knows when my alter ego comes out saying that i love everyone. i think i should think of a name for it. hahaha anyways... av's guest was a party foul though. ra's HELLLLA tryna get at that though. i guuuess man. hahaha. duuuude, ed was yakin like there was no tomorrow. it was gross man. i remember i was outside with vg & ed comes like running out & then i just see it shoot out! it was fuckin disgusting man. not even kidding. but dude, the party was fun. i enjoyed myself. monday: i went to the city with yk, mj, & ab. yk wanted me to go cus he was a wheel. so i walked & waited at the bus stop in the rain. YEAH YK, IT'S A GOOD THING I LOVE YOU. hahaha, i took bart down there too. it was cool though. i didn't even need anything. there were somethings that i wanted. seriously dude, i love yk & ab. they're legit cus even when i was down, they cheered me up. :D so when i was leaving the city, i called sd asking to chill & i told him i was going to colma & he said that cb would pick me up. so i texted sd saying that i was gonna be at colma in twenty minutes. & then i called him before i got off & he didn't answer. so i was like fuck! what am i gonna do? so i called nr & he said that he was going to tanforan so i just took bart to there. then i met up nr, rb, & js. then we went to red robin's for "rb's birthday". hahaha. i felt like i invited myself cus i didn't go to terra nova but they all said it was cool. they were cool about it though. i chilled with bm & st during dinner. they're hella cool. after dinner we went back to tanforan to take a picture with santa. i'd post it but when i tried editting it, it came out hella weird. so yeah. we were at tanforan for helllla long. then we finally decided to go to jp's house. then rb gave me a ride home. it was a good thing my parents were outta town for the night. :P tuesday: i chilled for most of the day then cb, na, sd, & nr kidnapped me to a park to chill. we were boss.. except na. then they brought me back home & i was helllla hungry. oh maaan dude. it was delicious though. then i went to ie's house for movie night & we watched this christmas. it was pretty good. ie had helllla food so it was good to eat then too :) then i went home. & i got an unexpected phone call. it was cool :D

to the cutest girls of all high schools :P

yes yes yes yes!

i love the yes dance. hahaha. anyways, finals are OVER & break is heeeeeya! :D i'm sooo excited dude. hahaha. i think i did pretty good on my finals. at least i'm hoping that i did. i'm really nervous about pre-calc now cus idk if i got an a or not :( i hope i did good on leach's cus i reeeeally don't want a c on my report card. uh... yeah. what else? well, this week went by pretty fast so that was a relief. but i'm hella back to bad habits. naaaht cool. uh, i haven't really done anything this past week. if i did, i don't remember. hahaha. today after finals, i stayed around school for a little bit then went around the city with ie, jm, nv, ag, mb, & jd. we went to haight & i got my enchantees kris kringle gift & a jacket for when it rains. it's kinda like a northface one. i like it :) oh & i saw the shirt that describes my life. i really want it. i think i'll put a christmas wish list at like the end of this post. anyways, back to my day. so after haight, we went to clement, mb & i ordered some king of thai to go to meet everyone else at genki. then we chilled in quickly's & chatted then took bus to bart. omg dude, going to bus was hellllla funny. okay so we were like across the street & we saw our bus at the bus stop. so me & jm start running for it & then we find out that the bus doesn't even stop at the next stop! so we stop running & then we're like riiiight next to ab & mj! hella random. hahaha. but dude, THE BUS WAS HELLLLLA CROWDED! it was ridiculous! soooo, i got home & then chilled for a while until i had to leave for the good shepherd game at 715. so i got to holy name & then it was st. celicia & st. gabriel. i didn't know st. gabe's was black. i always thought they were blue. well, i texted xs telling him that i saw a st. cecilia team then yk called me & was like you're at holy name? want us to go down there. he called right before half-time. dude, yk, xs, & jj got there when there was six seconds left. hahahaha, it's the thought that counts, right? hahaha. i thought it was cute that they went. i was expecting them to flake. it sucks that i had to leave like seriously five minutes after they got there. dude, after the game they like got in the line where you're like good game & shit. hahaha, stupid boys :P i ended up not going to ie's cus if i went, i'd have to leave like half an hour after i get there & i didn't wanna ask to stay there later cus i wanted to go out this weekend. i like neeed to go to the enchantees christmas thing & then to ej's to give my kris kringle gift & all that good stuff. i should wrap my gifts. i needa sell more stuff so i can buy new stuffs. i want new shooooes. dude, my internet has been hella gay lately cus i keep getting disconnected. it is not cool man. uh... i'm going through a rock phase cus i downloaded & have been listening to helllla rock songs. so yeah. i'm pretty "stoked" for break. omg, where did i get that from? i remember making fun of someone for saying it. hahaha, oh well. but in all seriousness, i'm sooo excited for break. i wanna hang out with some good shepherd kids & the cool kids cus i haven't seen them in foreverrrrr. :D

my christmas list:
-crocs M6/W8. royal blue/burgundy/black. not orange.
-bright orange jansport backpack... like giants orange
-this shirt

-that black/orange/yellow nike jacket
-What Happens in Vegas, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, PS I Love You, Wanted, Wall-e, Why Did I Get Married, Definitely Maybe dvds :D
...if all else fails, money for my iphone/shoe fund :D

there aren't enough

hours ina day. this weekend was started off soooo rocky, it was ridiculous. after my emo ass friday, i had an emo ass saturday morning. so i woke up early & did some productive thangs. i ran into js when i was walking home. HELLLA random. hahaha. i'm surprised he still remembered me cus the last time i saw him was at that police thing. anyways, so i got home & got ready for the good shepherd game. maaan, my team helllla doesn't listen to me! omg! i tell them to trap, they don't do it. i tell them... no BEG them to rebound, they still don't. ugh. whatever, they lost cus jay made a shitty ass line-up for the quarter where i CAN'T sub. so on the way home, my dad asked me about what happened friday & started bitching out about it again. it was stupid. so i complained to my mom cus she's the only one that listens to me. whatever, i got to go to gh's birthday thing. so i got dropped off at tanforan & chilled until more people came then we got seated. i spilt my food with vg. food was delicious :) omg & then there was baskin robin's ice cream cake. omg, it was amazing! hahaha. so we all met up at the marriott in san mateo. i rode with vg & cs. i thought i was gonna die the way he was driving. hahaha, just kidding cs :) oh man. marriott was sooo much fun. so when we first got to the hotel, we just chilled in the room. then everyone went down to the pool. not everyone swam/chilled in the jacuzzi. so i went on an adventure to 711 with nv, mh, bh, mc, & nh. i got some hi-chews that i ended up having two or three of twenty cus i shared with everyone. so we're in line & nh is like is bread supposed to be green & there was a loaf of bread that was sooooo fucking moldy. omg it was disgusting! it was hella funny though. i couldn't stop laughing! so we walked back to the hotel & went to the room. so my innocence is gone but i'm happy i was with the people i was with. i love my sh girls :D oh man dude. so i have a tendency to talk a lot, like a lot a lot. i hope i wasn't annoying though. i took seven, i think that's pretty good for a first. it was fun. there were sooooo many pictures. omg. my face would get hellllla warm. it was craaazy. uh, what else? idk, i was supposed to leave at eleven but my brother couldn't pick me up & i didn't wanna ask my dad. i just asked auntie j to give me a ride. we didn't leave until like one something. omg. & my mom kept calling meeee. she was getting hellllla mad & she said that i can't go to anymore parties. but i got home around one fortyfive & my mom didn't say anything. she called me when i was in my room & then i told her i was home & she was like okay. then i apologized for getting home late & she was like it's okay. so yeah. hopefulllly i'm okay cus i needa go to the christmas parties & maybe even ab's if he's still having it. i woke up nicely & then got ready for my sister's graduation party at hotel vitale. i curled my hair but i have like no pictures to show for it. :( it's okay. the food there was puhrittay gooood. there was this sort of fish & it was fucking awesome. omg! & the tiramisu was sooooo goooood, you do not even know :D so i got home, chilled, uploaded pictures & videos, then did some laundry. yeah, i still needa do shit for finals. i'll do some of it after i post this so i didn't have a completely useless weekend school-wise. man, this was suuucha good weekend for suuuch a shitty week. tomorrow, i will be maxing. tuesday, i will be cramming. wednesday-friday i will be dying. hahaha. please please please can this week pass by quick so it can be break already!

are you fucking serious?

dude, today was not good. so at this very moment, i'm in my brother's room cus i don't wanna be in my room just in case my dad goes in there for something cus i really didn't like today at all. okay, maybe not at all cus when that sophomore ripped his pants... that was pretty funny. other than that, my day was not good at all. even before i got to school today sucked. so i'm in the car on the way to school & i'm not driving. i needed to study anyways. so we're like close to school & the radio's being shitty & all it is is fucking commercials. so it's on one station & it's like a fucking commercial for like the mama mia dvd or whatever. i got bored of it so i changed the station & my dad was like what?! when's it coming out? so i changed it back & then it said like tuesday or something so i changed it again & he started bitching out! he was like i was listening to that! where is it coming out? you have no respect & then he turned off the radio & it was a long five minutes until i got to school. but dude, WTF! it's obviously coming out to wherever all dvds are sold. i swear dude. it was hella unnecessary. like it hasn't even come out yet & i doubt that it would be at suuuch a high demand that you have to like camp out or something. so i pissed & then when i get into school, i'm seriously freaking out cus i needed help for ethics & everyone i asked was being a dick. first person i asked was ls & he was like no, it's in my locker. if you helped me laaast night blah blah blah. i stopped listening cus i was pissed already. then i asked vg & he wouldn't help me either cus he was being difficult as fuck. i was seriously not ina mood to mess around. it's bad enough that i'm stressed as fuck but i was already pissed. dude, it's not a good mix. lucky jb came to my ethics rescue & i was good to go for the quiz. so ethics was boring then it was break then spanish; had my spanish oral for that. i like to think that i did pretty good. blah blah blah then it was time for my pre-calc quiz. i think i did bad on it. so i needa do good on that final too. at lunch, we went up to the veranda for gh's "surprise" birthday thing that failed at the beginning cus we weren't even outside when he got there. but ag's almond roca "cookies" were the shit! hahaha. anyways, rally was boring. school ended & it was time for lifting. it was okay. at the end, i hellllla stole the break from coach p. it was an accident cus i wasn't expecting him to say anything & jm was hellla nudging me to say it so i was like okay. i felt bad & embarassed but whatever. i lived. so i get outta lifting & i call my dad asking where he was & he said my brother was supposed to pick me up. so i called my brother & he was like are you at bart? THEFUCK?! i don't take bart after lifting cus i'm usually too tired. good thing we did light weight. so i didn't wanna wait at school by myself so i took bart with jm, ie, & gh. mb met us up at bart. so i'm at civic center & my dad calls me "i'm outside." after i hung up i realized what he said. so i called him back & was like i'm not even at school. i'm at bart & he started bitching out saying that i don't communicate with him. AREYOUFUCKINGSERIOUS? i've had the save exact schedule for weeeeks now. i even wrote it down for him a few months ago. 330. i get out of lifting at 3 fucking 30 every monday wednesday & friday. & he has the nerve to tell me that i don't communicate with him? seriously. i couldn't take it dude. i hella broke down at bart. i hate crying in front of people. i really do. it makes me feel so weak & vulnerable. dude, i didn't even want a ride home. i would've taken bart just so i can have some more me time but my brother wouldn't let me cus he told my dad that he'd pick me up. whatever, i chilled with ie, mb, & jm for a little bit then i left. dude, i can't even eat. it's not like i don't want to, i just like... can't. i'm not in the mood for it. & i have to leave for b league practice in like an hour or something. i really don't wanna go. it's not even that i'm lazy. i just feel too weak & irritable to do anything. i swear man. i can't deal with this. i don't like how this year is ending. i don't like it one bit. i seriously cannot wait until i get my license. it'll be soooo much easier so i don't have to deal with my dad's shit anymore. omg. i feel so down right now dude. you don't even know. man, i'm so fucking stressed now dude. holy shit. i have to start studying for finals to raise my grades & not deal with my dad & all his drama. so fuck that shit. i cannot wait for break.

oh maaan

first & foremost, this is for anyone that's been a part of my life. thanks robert :D

We might not have been friends from the start,
But that doesn’t mean you weren’t always in my heart.
I wish I was friends with you from a very young age,
But its okay because when I became friends with you my life started a new page.
Our friendship means so much to me I just cant say,
I don’t know what I would do without you and your thoughtful way.

During our friendship we have had a few fights,
But in the end we knew we could make it right.
Whenever I would hit a bump in life and fall,
You were there to help and you’re the one who made me get through it all.
I wanted you to know I am happy we made it through,
And that one of the people I completely trusted with everything was you.

You have been there for me every step of the way,
Helping me to take life day by day.
You have helped me forget my fears,
And in the end that has stopped my tears.
Thank you so much for all you have done for me,
You made me be the best person I can be.

:) :) :)... anyways. so today was not as bad as i expected. history test was not bad at all. chem quiz was eh but i have a high grade anyways so i'm okay. english wasn't anything to trip about cus we got to bring it home & like re-do it. ah, tomorrrrow. i have an ethics quiiiiz, spanish oral final, then a pre-calc quiiiiz. omg dude. maaan. anyways, after school today, i went downtown with jm & ie. i got my white elephant gift for my cousins & an outfit for my sister's graduation party. when we got to bart, i see some dude like turn the corner & it was gm! i was like wtf! & then we chatted for a while & both got off at colma. haven't seen that dude in foreverrr. twas nice to see him again :) when i got home, i chilled for a while then walked to get my eyebrows waxed then walked to good shepherd. they make me feel hella good when i play against them. hahaha. anyways, i got home & rushed to take a shower to see grey's anatomy & it ended up just being a re-run -_____- i got my psat scores today, i felt soooo stupid. whatever. next semester i'm really motivated to do hella good... hopefully it'll stay. cus i did pretty bad this semester. & if i wanna go anywhere good, i needa get my shit straight. yeah. uh... what else to say? yeah, idk. hahaha.

omg dude

i can't do this. omfg. i just can't. a week going into finals & i'm doing THIS bad. omg omg omg. my grades were supposed to like jump up. here's like a rundown of my classes...

• history: i'm borderline. SOOOOO FUCKING BORDERLINE, it's ridiculous. i thought i would've gotten an a cus i did good on my tests & all that good stuff. so i have an 89, B+. but my semester grade is gonna be lower cus i got a B+ last quarter. so class #1 that i have to do hella well on the final for.
• chemistry: i'm pretty solid for that class cus my second quarter grade is hella good & i know i got over a 90 last quarter. so i just needa review all my shit for that class & i'm okay
• english: WTF MAN! i have an 87! it's cus that stupid crucible presentation. IF WE RECORDED IT ON THE DAY WE WERE SUUUPPOSED TO, i'm suuure that it wouldn't have been C material -_____- i hope that my essays can bring that shit up man. i think i have a high B for the semester so far so class #2
  
• ethics: FUCK MR LEACH MAN! omg. i swear. his class is full of shit! the things that he talks about in class is never the stuff that we need for his class. & he never gives back the tests & quizzes so we don't know what we got wrong & don't know what we need to study. i have a C for the semester. dude, if that stays for the semester even after the final, i will cry. class #3
  
• spanish: i think i'm okay. i am hoping and praying that i have an a for the semester so far. my group for the final is pretty cool too so that'll help. & i'll just study vocab & conjugations so i'll be okay for that class.
• pre-calc: this quarter saved my ass man. no liiiie cus my semester is now an a & as long as i do well on the final, i'll be okay. & i can use a cheat sheet so i'll be okay... hopefully

DUDE, FUCK THOSE THREE CLASSES! omg. well, not so much on english & history. but ethics dude. OMG! i'm soooo fucking stressed & overwhelmed. omg. omg. omg! this is terrible. i needa get my shit straight. i've been focusing on everything BUT school. omg. i can't take this man. i swear, i have never felt so stressed about school until today. omg, you do not even knoooow. i need a pick-me-up REEEALLY bad. i swear, if anyone pisses me off today or tomorrow i will go craaazy. omg. & i was soooo confident i was doing hella good. omg. good job chelsea, way to fucking slack when the semester was ending. i swear, i can never keep a balance in my life. i can do good in school but bad in sports or vice versa. WTF. omg. dude, right now, my head is like overflowing with stress, you don't even knooow. i can't do this, i can't do this, i can't do this.

i can't wait for break

so let's see what i have to update you onnnn. i think i have like a temper problem. like i get hella mad over stupid things that i probably shouldn't get as mad about. i probably should work on that. hahaha. anyways... so saturday was my first game for the team i coach. they won by one! omg, it was fucking intense! it was the first game they won since fifth grade dude. they lost all the games last year. MAN! what a gooood way to start off the season :D hahaha. oh & i skipped winterball to go to nr's birthday. dude, my dad was being a dick though. he hella didn't want me to go but i talked to my mom & after my mom talked to him, my dad went to my room hella mad saying shit about like why i do i hang out with them & that i'll be like the only girl. i was like wooow. are you serious right now? but he ended up driving me there when i was just gonna walk so that was a plus. i left around ten & chilled at home for the rest of the night. nr's was cool though. i made new friends :D fight was pretty boring since pacquiao kicked ass & there was no real ko. but whatever. the song that nr's dad sang was hilarioussss! "I am sixteen going on seventeen. HAAAAAPPY BIIIIRTHDAAY TO YOU!" hahaha. i like nr's friends. they're pretty cool & easy to befriend :D i didn't know like anyone... other than like three but i came out with new friends so good job chelsea :P it was cool though. uh, what else? today i just chilled & then went to trader joe's with my parents. my dad was being a dick again. i wanted to go to trader joe's & he was like it's too far. i was like dude, it's daly city or south city. you go to daly city to get gas. & then he was like let's go to safeway i was like i guuuess. then i was looking through the fridge for things i need & my dad saw apples & started complaining about how if we get more, they'll rot & shit. so i was like fuck it, we don't have to go. so him & my mom went to get dinner & i chilled at home. & then my dad called me asking if i wanted to go to trader joe's. so yeah. hmmm... finals are like next week & i'm scared shitless. i wanna keep my grades up. so i needa do good on basically all my finals to get good grades. i think i can pull an a outta everything except ethics cus that stupid c -_____- whatever whatever whatever! school's stressing me out brooooo.

happy birthday ab!

grey's anatomy is suuuuch a good show. i love this show! i love thursdays at nine. hahaha. anyways, so my brother & mm broke up recently. i sooo had a feeling cus i wasn't seeing her around as much. man, i really liked when they were together. she's helllla nice & cool. i mean she gave me rides whenever i needed it like when my brother was lazy & shit. man, i'm gonna miss her. so i was talking to her cus she wanted to pick up her things before he left but he wasn't answering her IMs. then she told me that she & my brother broke cus he's a "robot" & she's a "hippie". they have "different hearts" . & then she asked who it was & i told her the girl's name & she was like omg! & started telling me all these things about her & then she was like that's why i'm not with him anymore. i have big heart for him but i'm the only one putting up a fight. i was like damn dude. that's intense. but then she was like i love you & your dad & then i told her i was gonna miss her & then she said we can hang out when i get my license. so at least that's okay... i'm hoping that they'll get back together. it might not be soon but eventually...
so yeeah. anyways, so i've been working really hard to get my grades up, be ready for track, & be ready for b-east league, hahaha. but yeah, i really have. if my grades are up, my parents would be able to trust me & when i get my license, let me go outttt :D & if i'm ready for track, i'll have a better chance of making varsity. coach c thinks i'm gonna be a sprinter & thrower... but if i'm both, i'll probably be on jv cus i am FORSURE that my sprinting skills aren't any better from last year. they're probably worse now. & then he said i should do cross country if i wanna be a better sprinter. IDK maaaaan. idk, we'll see how things go when it's time for try-outs. as for my grades. dude, i needa kick ass on mr l's final just so i can get a b :-/ other than that class, i'm doing hella good this quarter & i needa keep it up. i can't slack dude. if i'm looking to go to usf, i needa do a lot better. i reeeeally wanna get a 4.0 but i know it'll be close to impossible cus mr l's tests/quizzes always kill me :( i'm hoping that there will be a quiz before the quarter ends so i won't have a c anymore. yeah yeah yeah... i'll think of more stuff to write laterrr

maaan...

today was not a good day :-/ so i couldn't sleep for shiiiit last night. i was up until like two & woke up at the usual time for school. i was sooooo fucking tired for school man. i even got an extra twenty minutes cus i overslept. anyways, so i don't get chem for shiiiit & i have a test for it tomorrow. i still needa type my essay for english. i know as a fact my essay is not perfect but the person who editted it didn't do shiiiiit. holy shit man. my internet's being gay as fuck. i keep on getting disconnected so it's maaad difficult to keep a conversation with anyone :-\ anyways, i just restarted my internet & hopefully it won't fail on me again. anyways... i felt like shit today dude. ah, i don't even know what to do man. today was hella awkward too... at least after lunch. but hey, i got 100% on my pre-calc test & i was soooo scared i fucked up on that one question. omgggg. that was basically the high point of my day. oh & i picked up my pictures finally so i can add to the collage & whatnot. dude & wtf. i got hella mad today too. so yesterday my mom gave me five bills for christmas & then today my dad was like oh you have to save two hundred & put it in the bank but i'm already saving two hundred for my iphone. so that's four bills already gone & i definitely cannot get all the christmas presents that i needa get. dude, i needa buy fucking two kris kringles; school & enchantees & then like close friend's & siblings. yeah dude, i know as a fact that i don't have enough. & then i was talking to my dad & was like can i have fifty dollars for christmas shopping & he was like yeah so i was just staring at him waiting for him to give me money. & then he pulls some shit! i was like i barely have enough for anything & then he was like well, you still owe me two hundred & I GOT HELLLLLLA MAD. you don't even know. i was like wtf! just take all my money why don't you. like seriously, what's the point of giving me money if i can't even use it? cus my parents could have easily put whatever money in my bank account & then gotten me an iphone & give me whatever's leftover. i wouldn't be mad if it was like that but like getting that money was a great feeling. five crisp bills. omgggg. dude & then my dad was being the fattest jew when i was telling him about christmas shopping. he was like why're you getting them gifts? who are these people anyways blah blah blah. i was like wtf man. seriously? ugh. & i haaate driving with my dad cus it always makes me feel like shit so i get ina bad ass mood so i start driving hella shitty. maaaaan. i don't even know dude. whatever... i need salvation dude. :-/