rahmdum thotz

here are some random thoughts

iPhones: are the shit! I love my iphone it's so convenient dude no lie! it's hellla better than my old of shine. haha man that scratch on my old phone annoyed the shit outta me. no lie hahaha it's also a lot nicer and the service seems to be better than my shine my shine would lose service helllla times. so far the most times I've been cut off ona call was like two times and that's not bad at all.

ideal: whats really "ideal"? how do we even know what ideal is? who decides what makes something more ideal from another? something can seem to be ideal when all it is is just an illusion or something that we want to see not necessarily need to see. what's the point of ideals? something that we can work towards but maybe never get to. yeah, there are cases where people know exactly what their ideals are and how to get to them but for the most of us, what makes us get to that ideal or even have an idea of what it is.

lent: starts tomorrow and I have a pretty good idea of what I'm gonna do. basically I'm working on my motivation and dedication to my promises. I'll start attending mass regularly too. yeah, I know I should be doing that to begin with but idk man. I guess I never really got a chance to go since it's not a family thing anymore since my mom started working so much and that whole thing with my family not liking the priest. I guess I'll be going to a different church now

motivation/dedication: go hand in hand. I really wanna be more motivated and dedicated to all the shit that I do cus I am definitely not doing so. I can keep it going for a little bit maybe two weeks but idk. I always seem to fail afterwards. oh and I can't be told I'm doing good cus then I start slacking unless I get that motivation to help me keep going. idk why but I can never seem to maintain that same mentality or motivation that i have going for a while unless there's something or someone there behind me to push me & make sure that i do my shit.

college: wtf dude. about this time next year, i'm gonna be receiving letters from colleges telling me whether or not i was accepted. that's fucking crazy dude. no lie. i haven't even scheduled any of my tests & i'm not even taking a class or anything. all i have are rb's old books but they're just chillin in my room, gathering dust :-/

BALLOONO IS THE ISH! PLAY IT NOOOOW!

valentine's day

yeah, i know. it's a day late. WHATEVER! my valentine's day was the shit, thanks sd. :D so he picked me up & i gave him a chocolate rose. & he was like your gift's in the front seat. so i go to the passenger side & it's a bouquet of flowers & a riordan sweatshirt. (at the riordan game, jd & jm were talking about riordan sweatshirts. & i was like yeah, i want one too. hahaha yeah) & thenn we went to red robin's & got somethinnnn to eat. then we drove around & went to the beach. we didn't like walk on the sand though. we walked on the pier. the weather was nice though :) then we chilled at sd's for a bit. then i went home & then chilled at nv's with ag. then i went back home & did the usual saturday night stuff :D today i chilled at home all day. & tomorrow i'm hanging out with the cool kids. i missed them a lot :)

to MY girls,

i really think that i've got a real solid group of friends dude. i looooove my SHgirls♥! we've gotten hella closer this year & i'm really glad that it happened. like looking back at freshman year & parts of sophomore year, i missed out on soooo much. i've been able to tell them things that i haven't been able to. i can seriously rely on them for anything; whether it's school work, boy help, a good venting, money if needed... anything. basically, my girls shit on all the other girls from any school. plus, we're the cutest girls of all the high schools :P but i guess it took something like today to make me really see how much we have each other. i mean, i knew like they all got me if something were to happen but like... today set it in fucking stone. i know people say it all the time "i gotchu" or something along those lines but it's another thing to actually BE there for someone. even if it meant that we had to be squished in my car hahaha. yeah dude. i fucking love my girls... no homo :)

& hey girl, you know we seriously gotchu on whatever. we're all hoping & praying for the best

oh hello :)

hi! i'm back! man, i like 09. so this weekend was pretty cool. friday i went to suily's with jd & mb. mongolian beeeeef<3 soooo good :) then i got planet yogurt. HELLLA GOOD! then i chilled with jp & sd super quick. thennnn i went home & chilled for a bit. DUDE! on the way home, i saw jm. it was hellllla weird & random. hahaha then on saturdaaaaay. oh! i had lifting then i went to mel's bonfire. it was pretty fun. sucks i had to leave early cus my game though :( i felt pretty bad that i like left sd when i told him to go... but it's not like i had a choice, right? so my game was pretty cool. i'm pretty sure i got a double double or pretty damn close to it. beast league is pretty fun though. since jf is outta town, we had a replacement coach & he was hella impressed by me. yeeeeah :) hahaha. dude no lie, i love that feeling when you know you impressed someone or like just get that gut feeling that you're the favorite. hahaha yeah. i like it when that happens. uh, what else? sunday... SUPERBOWL WAS FUCKING INTENSE! hahaha, chilled with sd again & met some of his cousins. they seemed cool :) man. i had like an sd-filled weekend. hahaha. so yeah, no school friday. i'm sooo excited! :) hahaha. uh yeah. last night i had an ube jolly cooler & it was like the finishing touch to a bomb ass weekend. hahaha.

VVV retreat, late christmas gifts for the girls, boyprenddddd :D