dear summer,

i have arranged a little list of things that i would like to do :)

• GET A FUCKING JOB! (pleeeease hire me in-n-out. $10/hr?! i'll have my macbook in noooo time)
• watch all the harry potter movies
• have a full out cleaning of my room & the house
  
• read hellllla books/finish all the books i started during the school year & never finished
• go to all/majority of the track workouts (i wanna be a champ next year!)
• finish summer assignments at least a week before school starts (hopefulllly)

i don't wanna put "hanging out" goals cus it won't be as fun cus it has to be like spur of the moment. or like... idk how to explain it. it just can't be a checklist cus it makes everything like planned. ugh, that's sucha bad way to explain but yeah. hooopefully you guys get what i mean. hahaha :)

i just wish that you make this so goddamn difficult.

damn dude,

i'm totally failing to update this thing. i'm sorry followers! ...if i even have any. hahaha. anyways, let's do a little run through on my life.

• prom was soooo fun VVV for a couple pictures. & it was a happy three for me & my boo :) the food was pretty good & the dancing was fun. definitely some of the most awkward dancing i've seen ina while. almost little asian leaguers' first social or something hahaha. after prom, me, sd, nv, & m_ got til. it was so funny. & then we went to ie's for the after party. note to self, never get til first. i was helllla sleepy after & i was stuck as fuck. so i slept for like half the after party but i did get to see the main parts. :P & the "drunk girl" never seems to fail these typa parties. :roll:
• sd has been a really good boyfriend. just barely over three months & i already know that he really cares about me. at ie's, he stayed with me the whole night while i knocked out & watched out for me. & then today, i didn't drive & he didn't have school. so he picked me up from sh & brought me to riordan for the meet & then drove me home. i told jd about how he's picking me up & then she was like damn, he loves you dude. he might not be in love with you but he's getting there. i was like whoa... maybe? maybe i am too? cus seriously, i really do care for the guy. after each day, i find myself falling deeper & deeper. yeah, i have a different way of showing it. but it's true.
• school sucks ass. all my grades are dropping. :-/ i'm just so fucking lazy. damn. i needa stop dude. i mean like i don't even do homework anymore. i hella half ass all my shit. omg. but i am doing pretty well in track. ATHLETEOFTHEMONTH, HOWLLAAAA! ;) my discus has improved a lot but shot has stayed the same. fuck. i seriously needa hit 30 before the season ends. next wednesday is my last meet until trials. i needa step my game up.
• basketball can always be better. i needa run cus i'm super slow :-/ LA friday-sunday! i'm so excited :) & mother-f you for being a dick about it.
  

a little tease from prom ;)





& a very special one :)

and i quote

Take chances, take a lot of them.
Because honestly, no matter where
you end up and with whom, it always
ends up just the way it should be. Your
mistakes make you who you are. You
learn and gor with each choice you make.
Everything is worth it. Say how you feel,
always. Be you, and be okay with it.
-unknown

dude,

keeping up with two blogs is awfully difficult >.< i'll try to make my way over hither every once ina while. sorry, i've been on tumblr lately cus that's where the cool kids reside :P hahahaha! sike! but yeah, it's just easier to access their blogs through there. so yeah.. & there was an app for it for my phone hahahaha. lalala

wooooo!

it's been a good like what? two meets with sun & i'm already getting darker?! GOOOD SHIT! i'm so excited :P good job chelsea. soon you're gonna be as dark as vg HAHAHAHAHA! so yeah. man, i wanna do something to my bloggy but idk what to do with it. it's just so boringgg. i need a way to spice it up ;) until then, this'll do. anyways... i wish i was one of those people that like never use the computer but i'm just so addicted :-/ it kinda sucks. whatever. i'll work on it... slowly but surely :)... hopefully. hahahaha. i wish i was more focused on school dude. then i probably wouldn't have to worry about my grades. seriously, i never do my homework. idk how i get along sometimes.

it's been a while

since i've posted some pictures! :) nooo lie, i missed parties with my SH girls. sh parties > westmoor parties... JUUUST SAYIN ;) the pictures are from rm's birthday last night. dude when we walked in, i thought we were gonna leave pretty quick. it was pretty cool when we stayed, better than i expected. a good number of party fouls though. lalalala :D

what i like about you

is suuucha cute show. i love it :) holly & vince are one of my all-time faaavorite couples. i just watched like hellla epidsodes so yeah. anyways, i made a twitter recently... cus kb told me that i should. yeah, nv was right when she said i was gonna make one sooner or later. it's pretty cool. i wish i knew more people that had it so i can follow them & be nosey :P JUST KIDDING! to whoever reads this, you should totally get a twitter cus it's pretty sick. blah blah blah... i love watching shows or movies that have a couple where one person makes the other person have this like major revelation by saying something that's hella true and then leave to have them think about it. that's probably the reason why i like grey's anatomy so much. that alwaaays happened with derek & meredith. & same with what i like about you with holly & vince. oh maaan. those scenes are so cute! i love it! i love it a lot :)

"hey oh,

now listen to what i say, oh." ;) that song's sooo catchy. omg. it's great. hahaha. anyways, so i've been wanting to write some life stories/experiences in here for a while now. so let's seeeee. i editted my color scheme & the title or whatever. yeah. nothing too special. oh & i changed my song over the weekend cus pg hellla stole my song but then he changed it to something else but i didn't wanna change it back. so yeah, enough rambling. my very first meet at a thrower is on saturday. my first tournament of asian league is at the end of the month. i feel unprepared for basketball though. i shit you not, i'm nervous. i know i'm nowhere near conditioned... or well to the point to where i'm satisfied with where it. (fml for not doing anything today to change that :( :( :( x infinity) MOTIVATION! WTF ARE YOUUU?! i had it good for a week & then it was downhill from there. omg. i have what? a little more than three weeks? I NEEDA GET MY SHIT STRAIGHT & GET ON THAT. omg. cus if i can't even last a full game out of three, i'm screwed. i'm scared that i'm not gonna be as good as i was last year. especially since i haven't really been playing as much as i should & even running as much as i should. omg. i'm so slooow. & my endurance/stamina is TERRIBLE! ah, i can barely do a LEGIT mile with vg :( :( :( i always feel so bad when i run with him cus he's like super all-star athlete cus he like just got outta wrestling & can hang with all that shit. & i can't cus... i've been wasting away my youth by getting fat & not doing anything that'll benefit me later on. i hope to be one of those people that don't go on the computer as much cus they'd rather read a book or work out or... idk, something that's better than killing all these brain cells when my eyes are attached to this screen, yafeeme? ;) hahaha, seriously. i'd really like to be one of those people. i remember reading this bulletin a while back that was like how come an hour in church seems so much longer than an hour ina movie. for me, it's like an hour working out can be sooo much longer than an hour on the computer. that needs to change asap. maybe i'll like hide my internet adapter thing & the battery to my laptop to prevent me from using it as much. hahaha, that's stupid. but it caaan help & seriously, i need as much help as possibleeee. like i said earlier, MOTIVATION, WHERE THE FUUUCK ARE YOU?! not only motivation, but dedication too! it's one thing to be motivated but to stick with it too? yeah, i need that... desperately. idk, i think i need that feeling of obligation. like how i can stick with track & enchantees cus i have that sense of obligation. not only that i have to be there but i should be there cus it'll make me better compared to not doing anything. why can't i have that mentality when it comes to conditioning? ah, yeah.

rahmdum thotz

here are some random thoughts

iPhones: are the shit! I love my iphone it's so convenient dude no lie! it's hellla better than my old of shine. haha man that scratch on my old phone annoyed the shit outta me. no lie hahaha it's also a lot nicer and the service seems to be better than my shine my shine would lose service helllla times. so far the most times I've been cut off ona call was like two times and that's not bad at all.

ideal: whats really "ideal"? how do we even know what ideal is? who decides what makes something more ideal from another? something can seem to be ideal when all it is is just an illusion or something that we want to see not necessarily need to see. what's the point of ideals? something that we can work towards but maybe never get to. yeah, there are cases where people know exactly what their ideals are and how to get to them but for the most of us, what makes us get to that ideal or even have an idea of what it is.

lent: starts tomorrow and I have a pretty good idea of what I'm gonna do. basically I'm working on my motivation and dedication to my promises. I'll start attending mass regularly too. yeah, I know I should be doing that to begin with but idk man. I guess I never really got a chance to go since it's not a family thing anymore since my mom started working so much and that whole thing with my family not liking the priest. I guess I'll be going to a different church now

motivation/dedication: go hand in hand. I really wanna be more motivated and dedicated to all the shit that I do cus I am definitely not doing so. I can keep it going for a little bit maybe two weeks but idk. I always seem to fail afterwards. oh and I can't be told I'm doing good cus then I start slacking unless I get that motivation to help me keep going. idk why but I can never seem to maintain that same mentality or motivation that i have going for a while unless there's something or someone there behind me to push me & make sure that i do my shit.

college: wtf dude. about this time next year, i'm gonna be receiving letters from colleges telling me whether or not i was accepted. that's fucking crazy dude. no lie. i haven't even scheduled any of my tests & i'm not even taking a class or anything. all i have are rb's old books but they're just chillin in my room, gathering dust :-/

BALLOONO IS THE ISH! PLAY IT NOOOOW!

valentine's day

yeah, i know. it's a day late. WHATEVER! my valentine's day was the shit, thanks sd. :D so he picked me up & i gave him a chocolate rose. & he was like your gift's in the front seat. so i go to the passenger side & it's a bouquet of flowers & a riordan sweatshirt. (at the riordan game, jd & jm were talking about riordan sweatshirts. & i was like yeah, i want one too. hahaha yeah) & thenn we went to red robin's & got somethinnnn to eat. then we drove around & went to the beach. we didn't like walk on the sand though. we walked on the pier. the weather was nice though :) then we chilled at sd's for a bit. then i went home & then chilled at nv's with ag. then i went back home & did the usual saturday night stuff :D today i chilled at home all day. & tomorrow i'm hanging out with the cool kids. i missed them a lot :)

to MY girls,

i really think that i've got a real solid group of friends dude. i looooove my SHgirls♥! we've gotten hella closer this year & i'm really glad that it happened. like looking back at freshman year & parts of sophomore year, i missed out on soooo much. i've been able to tell them things that i haven't been able to. i can seriously rely on them for anything; whether it's school work, boy help, a good venting, money if needed... anything. basically, my girls shit on all the other girls from any school. plus, we're the cutest girls of all the high schools :P but i guess it took something like today to make me really see how much we have each other. i mean, i knew like they all got me if something were to happen but like... today set it in fucking stone. i know people say it all the time "i gotchu" or something along those lines but it's another thing to actually BE there for someone. even if it meant that we had to be squished in my car hahaha. yeah dude. i fucking love my girls... no homo :)

& hey girl, you know we seriously gotchu on whatever. we're all hoping & praying for the best

oh hello :)

hi! i'm back! man, i like 09. so this weekend was pretty cool. friday i went to suily's with jd & mb. mongolian beeeeef<3 soooo good :) then i got planet yogurt. HELLLA GOOD! then i chilled with jp & sd super quick. thennnn i went home & chilled for a bit. DUDE! on the way home, i saw jm. it was hellllla weird & random. hahaha then on saturdaaaaay. oh! i had lifting then i went to mel's bonfire. it was pretty fun. sucks i had to leave early cus my game though :( i felt pretty bad that i like left sd when i told him to go... but it's not like i had a choice, right? so my game was pretty cool. i'm pretty sure i got a double double or pretty damn close to it. beast league is pretty fun though. since jf is outta town, we had a replacement coach & he was hella impressed by me. yeeeeah :) hahaha. dude no lie, i love that feeling when you know you impressed someone or like just get that gut feeling that you're the favorite. hahaha yeah. i like it when that happens. uh, what else? sunday... SUPERBOWL WAS FUCKING INTENSE! hahaha, chilled with sd again & met some of his cousins. they seemed cool :) man. i had like an sd-filled weekend. hahaha. so yeah, no school friday. i'm sooo excited! :) hahaha. uh yeah. last night i had an ube jolly cooler & it was like the finishing touch to a bomb ass weekend. hahaha.

VVV retreat, late christmas gifts for the girls, boyprenddddd :D

onetwofive

gotem :) man, so since i got a "new" (meaning a laptop that my dad was using before & doesn't want anymore cus he got a brand new one) laptop, i don't have photoshop on here anymore. meaning that i can't put my pictures on here... unless i just go boring & put it up without the "BENDUHBEL!" in the bottom right corner. hahaha. retreat was helllla fun dude. i enjoyed it a lot. definitely one of those things you haaad to be there for... or else it doesn't seem as amusing. but yeah, i got to bond with a pretty good group of the SH girls. we stayed up till five just talking about our lives & shit. it was pretty cool. then i went to the warriors game on friday night with sd. game was definitely a heartbreaker. twas a good game though. saturday i had lifting. dude, only seven people went! it was hella little. then we played dodgeball. it was helllla fun! then i went home, showered, cleaned, & chilled. then i went to watch notorious with sd, ba, na, & jp. then they went to my house to chill until i had to drive them all home. jp wanted to see his girlfriend & they were hellllla arguing. omg dude. it was intense! then i took them home & chilled with sd for the night. sunday: did laundry, did some homework & chiiiiiiilled. :)

hello :)

yeah, i didn't kow what to title this so yeah. that's all i got. hahaha. anyways. so i have survived my first week of school after break. it wasn't too bad. i'm slowly but surely getting into the swing of things. track conditioning started this past week. yeah, i'm scared i might end up on jv. i don't wanna be on jv as a junior. i wanna be on vars. there's only five spots & it's probably gonna go to the girls that did it last year. :-/ conversion ftl. i'm starting to play basketball more often. i needa be on top of my shit or else i won't be able to do as good as i would like. dude, lifting has gotten me helllla sore. omg. like right now, holy shit dude. so yesterday i had enchantees practice & when we scrimmaged, i made three threes ina row. omg. it was fucking awesome especially since i haven't played like legitly in a good month. today i played basketball at gellert with na, sd, jp, ba, cb, & mj. i did really good the first game but the other games were shit. considering that i haven't played in so long, i did pretty good. just a little rusty on my threes & left hand lay-ups. my speed & stamina has gone way down. yeah, that definitely needs to be fixed before enchantees. dude & my dad let me drive there on my own. it was great :D so yeah. today was cool. last night was cool too. i chilled with sd, cb, & na. twas fun :) dude, i love having my license. it's so cool. hahaha :P

winter break 08

has been amazing :) no lie. damn, ForYourSoul2 was a great way to end break & on top of that i got my license. WOOOO! i'll have videos later cus they're currently uploading on my youtube. omg dude. ForYourSoul2 was freaking amazing! i enjoyed it a lot. i was sooo much more into it than like everyone i was with :-[ it's okay though. dude, so i noticed that ja was wearing bred 1s so at the meet & greet, i complimented them & he said he dropped four bills & that they're from 94! i was like daaaaamn. i couldn't believe it. yeah, it was pretty sick though. hahaha, so i'm gay & i'm adding like all the performers :P it's okay though. hahahaha. anyways, so before the show i chilled with ss. DAMN I MISSED HER! noooo lie. hahaha. she's still a bitch though :P hahaha. I FINALLY MET GB!!! my life is complete :D so yeah. i got my license today :) ONE WRONG! & it was coming to a complete stop ona right turn. omg dude. it was pretty great. hahaha. today was my last day of break. man, i really don't wanna go back to school. & my first class is gonna be leach? fml. hahaha, just kidding. but seriously, i have had suuuch an unproductive break. i mean i cleaned... if that counts for anything. other than that, i didn't do shit. nothing school related. only... socially related. hahaha. so yeah. that's about it. i'll be back to post the videos & my youtube liiiink :D

more at: http://www.youtube.com/user/chelsaayyy

hi 2009

hi. so this new year has been off to an interesting start. i watched twilight with my sister & then we got dinner at some mexican place named arraujo's or something like that. it was pretty crackin. but yeah. idk, it was interesting cus i never spend time with my sister. she paid for everything too. twilight was a good movie though. i lahked it. i might read start reading it. i mean i already started the first one when i was at barnes & noble waiting on nr. so yeeeeah. i still needa read my other books before i start something new. dude, i really do like reading... for recreation. books for school are so boring & i can never really get into it. so yeeeah. what else? dude, i'm OBSESSED with the cab. they're suuucha good band. no liiie. dude, for your soul in THREE days! i'm sooooo excited! omg. i will be in the presence of gabe bondoc! oh maaaan. :D yeah, this'll be a short one. kbye! :P

dear 2008,

damn, you were suuucha rollercoaster. no lie! from arguments with my parents & friends to sneaking out to fun track meets to making grades. damn, even making & losing friends too. DAAAMN. no lie, you were a good year. i learned a lot. like who's a legit friend, what not to say, what not to do ona bus, bringing a camera to every sh event :P oh man. i've drifted & gotten closer to a lot of people. i somewhat learned how to deal with my dad since he hasn't been working cus his injury. oh man. the smiles, the laughs, the tears, the illnesses, the yelling. oh man. it's been good dude. :D so right now, i'm gonna take a moment to like... talk about the people in my life.

family: damn dude, no matter how much i get upset or they get upset, they're fucking legit. i love my family. even when my dad's a dick or how i barely see my mom or when my brother or sister bitch about giving me rides, they're the best. i couldn't have my family any other way :)

jf: my best friend forever & ever. yeah, we don't talk as much as we did before school but this guy's still my best friend. i love talking to this guy especially when i'm down. he always finds a way to make things better. i love this guy

sd: my other best friend. he can be a dick sometimes making me get mad at him soooo much. omg it's crazy. no lie, i love spending time with this guy. i saw him at least once a week during summer & now i see him like once a month. i love this guy too

ss: BITCHASS! i miss this girl. no matter how little i see or talk to her, i love her helllla much. like a real sister. not even kidding dude. she's a legit friend cus she never tells me what i wanna hear; always what i needa hear

aa: no matter what beef we had when sophomore year ended, i still love my bestie boo boo. she's still there for me. i'm glad i still have her in my life cus i can still tell her things that i can't tell other people & she'll understand me completely.

ab: dude, this guy's suuuucha good friend. i'm hella glad that i've stayed this close to him. when ever i'm in a TON, he's always there to help & comfort me. dude, especially the times with my dad. he was alllllways there to help me cope & get back to normal. i love mah numba one

yk: THIS GUY NEVER LETS ME DOWN. noooo fucking lie. he's always there to talk to & ask for help. sometimes he thinks differently than i do & it like always helps me when i'm ina dilemma. he's also there for me when i'm in a TON. i love this dude

sh girls♥: dude, i fucking love these girls. THE CUTEST GIRLS OF ALL THE HIGH SCHOOLS! :P omg. the sh girls are probably the best girls you'll ever meet. this year we've gotten hella closer & i hope it stays like that after high school :D

everyone else: whether it was good or bad, you helped my 2008 be the shit :) sorry i couldn't name everyone & don't think you're not important. you really are :D

here's some pictures from rey's... the last of 08

this is weird.

dude, no lie. i never thought i'd have a song like this on my blogspot or myspace or anything. it's kinda weird if you ask me. anyways, i don't wanna offend anyone cus i've been a dick. idk man. i'll keep this short but idk why i do this to people. i never know what i want or what i need. ah, i needa gather my thoughts.

ah,

i liked today :)

DECEMBER27- i didn't wanna make a new post so i'm just gonna add to this one. everyone's been making fun of me cus the length of my blogs. i just want people to know what happens in my liiife. hahaha. anyways, so yesterday... i had good shepherd practice at 11; it was okay. then i got ready for san jose with ll & gv. dude, i was suuuch a third wheel. :-/ dude, we went to hella urban boutiques. i kinda regret not getting anything cus there was some nice stuff. out of all the stores we went to, i liked azuki. no lie, ll & gv are the worst navigators ever. we got lost sooooooo many times! omg. sooooo many circles. i don't even know how many times we got lost. omg & gv started driving on the wrong side of the road! omg it was hellllla funny! he said that he was "following the line"...UH HUH. that's how we get on the wrong side of the road, right? hahaha. so yeah, we went to valley fair in san jose. that is where we met up pg. dude's pretty taaaaall. i felt bad cus i was getting him in trouble though. uh, merry christmas chelsea :) hahahahahah... anyways. i really wanted cinnabon yesterday though cus lorina got some for her mom. OMG, they smelled delicious! hahaha okay. so after valley fair, we picked up gv's friend, k_ in burlingame. then we went to coit tower to take pictures. DUUUUDE I WAS OBSESSED WITH LIGHT TRAILS! omg. they're soooo sick. i was spelling my name :) dude, taking notes backwards in ethics reeeally helped cus in order for my name to be read, i had to. omg it was sooooo sick. then gv had to drop us off downtown so he can drive his auntie to work. so we took more pictures. :) then it was back home. man, reading this made my day seem not as good... you just had to be there. hahahaha

thanks jose for letting me use your camera! :D