"hey oh,

now listen to what i say, oh." ;) that song's sooo catchy. omg. it's great. hahaha. anyways, so i've been wanting to write some life stories/experiences in here for a while now. so let's seeeee. i editted my color scheme & the title or whatever. yeah. nothing too special. oh & i changed my song over the weekend cus pg hellla stole my song but then he changed it to something else but i didn't wanna change it back. so yeah, enough rambling. my very first meet at a thrower is on saturday. my first tournament of asian league is at the end of the month. i feel unprepared for basketball though. i shit you not, i'm nervous. i know i'm nowhere near conditioned... or well to the point to where i'm satisfied with where it. (fml for not doing anything today to change that :( :( :( x infinity) MOTIVATION! WTF ARE YOUUU?! i had it good for a week & then it was downhill from there. omg. i have what? a little more than three weeks? I NEEDA GET MY SHIT STRAIGHT & GET ON THAT. omg. cus if i can't even last a full game out of three, i'm screwed. i'm scared that i'm not gonna be as good as i was last year. especially since i haven't really been playing as much as i should & even running as much as i should. omg. i'm so slooow. & my endurance/stamina is TERRIBLE! ah, i can barely do a LEGIT mile with vg :( :( :( i always feel so bad when i run with him cus he's like super all-star athlete cus he like just got outta wrestling & can hang with all that shit. & i can't cus... i've been wasting away my youth by getting fat & not doing anything that'll benefit me later on. i hope to be one of those people that don't go on the computer as much cus they'd rather read a book or work out or... idk, something that's better than killing all these brain cells when my eyes are attached to this screen, yafeeme? ;) hahaha, seriously. i'd really like to be one of those people. i remember reading this bulletin a while back that was like how come an hour in church seems so much longer than an hour ina movie. for me, it's like an hour working out can be sooo much longer than an hour on the computer. that needs to change asap. maybe i'll like hide my internet adapter thing & the battery to my laptop to prevent me from using it as much. hahaha, that's stupid. but it caaan help & seriously, i need as much help as possibleeee. like i said earlier, MOTIVATION, WHERE THE FUUUCK ARE YOU?! not only motivation, but dedication too! it's one thing to be motivated but to stick with it too? yeah, i need that... desperately. idk, i think i need that feeling of obligation. like how i can stick with track & enchantees cus i have that sense of obligation. not only that i have to be there but i should be there cus it'll make me better compared to not doing anything. why can't i have that mentality when it comes to conditioning? ah, yeah.